coalescence...

in an open prairie, i stand with nothing but my solitude
but with everything all around
my bare feet sink into the earth
as my toes curl and burrow the silky dirt
with my head tilted back and my eyes softly shut
i extend my arms in the tepid wind
until my heart and mind are completely accessible
the dancing wind swirls and whirls in and out
of each strand of my hair to each blade of Indian grass
as the clouds break
a flash of warmth sends chills up my weary spine
i leap with every bit of ME into the atmosphere
and my descent is broken by a rolling wave of a rainbow
the prismatic bow escalates me throughout the sky
up and around the mountains and trees
i soar past an eagle as he gives me a wink
this is my universe
i am exactly where i'm supposed to be
i will ride my rainbow till the end of infinity

electric blanket...

i feel it all.
this hazy, swirlin mystical energy.
i've got bees in my feet
and butterflies up my spine.
the world is a warm blanket.
the universe has extended her heart.
i feel good, real good.
opportunity's knockin.

enigmatic smoke-filled energy...

he balanced himself
on one leg of the chair
i shot down my whiskey
and tossled my hair

with a kick, he hit the floor

i crawled over that man
and with him wanting more
i stole the cigarette
from his pale lips
i sucked back the smoke
and jostled my hips
his eyes rolled back
his mouth opened wide
he let out a howl
as my tongue felt inside
masked by rainbow smoke
chocolate freckles were concealed
they would only provoke
a lust i had to heal
he tried to run
hey! come here mister
i bared my teeth
and pulled down his zipper.

latest ebay experience...

so i had a pretty awesome experience today with my latest ebay purchase. i bid on a handmade native american fringed medicine bag to wear around my neck and house my crystals. when i received it in the mail today, there was a letter enclosed:

"liz,

hello! thank you for your purchase. it is my first e-bay sale so i am very excited and grateful that you were willing to bid on a newby with no feedback. i have a silly habit of sending letters with my purses when they are shipped, that is the reasons are varied but the biggest reason is to try to explain somehow that these bags- even the littles- are my brain child and i try to treat them with the greatest of care from the time i buy the hide (my little girl is jostling me, please excuse the handwriting) the hides are treated with care and if stored, not for long and in a closed basket i designated for them. when it is time for a particular hide to be used, it is moved to my "work basket." my work basket is nick-named the womb. i am very picky about the womb. i cannot start a new hide until the last is totally used and the womb cleaned of scraps/messes. no plastic can be in this basket, but there are several stones and things in there. when the basket is at rest, i cover the contents with a dreamcatcher in the form of an antler. all of my scraps are buried in the forest so no slight piece of energy from any purse is in a landfill. there are many silly details, but i send this letter so that you can know, this really is a medicine bag. i hope you like her. if not, you've got my address.

thanks again!"

if lily only knew how happy this made me... i wish more people (including myself) could take the time, thought process and energy that she exudes and put that into every part of their life... wow, how amazing this world would be!

10 lessons learned... or maybe not.

1. a lady never leaves the house without her lipstick on. (one of the only things my mother instilled in me that i can never follow, besides using the words "whom" instead of who or "uncouth")

2. never get stoned before an Album Leaf show.

3. men under 30 are useless. men over 30 are broken.

4. always collect any nude photos/videos of yourself otherwise they could end up in a frame on some random new yorker's desk.

5. daddy/mommy issues do exist.

6. tequila is not my friend, never has been.

7. always ride rollercoasters in the rain.

8. cats make great alibis.

9. use nicknames. you won't get confused and you won't get attached.

10. never date musicians... they are too sensitive for your liking.

buoy...

i am exactly where i am supposed to be.

and all around me i see people falling,as i am making my great elevation.
when i thought i was sinking,i was actually healing.

and the selfishness i exploited has now granted me freedom.
freedom from the abuse i endured.

i've picked up some really great souls along the way.
and to my surprise... it was I who REALLY loved all along.
true love. without condition.

i didn't think i had it in me...
not for human souls anyway.

but i've loved overall.
in everything.
in everyone.
in everyplace.
in everybit.
in everywhere.
exhaustively.

the past presents the future...

i once had self.
it was robbed from me.
i spent years without it.
i wanted it, so i took back what was mine.

i once was steel.
nothing affected me long term.
they told me i must "feel" and i did.
now i see it has been a waste of time.

i once had a gift.
i guess i lost it along with self.
i want it back.
but i'm not sure if it can be returned.

i have an emptyness.
it is not robbed or lost.
it pervades my existence.
it is yours to steal.